Always on the go

Man it seems like I'm always on the go. I never have time to just sit down and relax and enjoy myself. The life of a stay-at-home mom/homemaker is wild, nobody told me that it would be this hard. I would not trade this job for any other job in the world. I actually love taking care of my family and our house. I might have problems with my health and sometimes more pain some days than others but I eventually get the job done and it is all worth it in the end. I've been dragging my feet on getting life insurance my husband has been on to me about how we really do need to get it because we are not promised tomorrow and we never know what could happen. Because my mom when she passed away unexpectedly, she did not have life insurance and it left us scrambling to try to get the money together to be able to at least get her remains. We had my mother cremated, to do everything it was a total of $2,000 which we did not have luckily her brother had the money and he put the money up and me and my dad split the cost and paid him back. Then when my dad passed away thank God his sister had got insurance on him and she had been paying it and he had been paying her back a portion of it but when she passed away their other sister took over payments and became the beneficiary. My dad passed away two years ago from lung cancer I had a sneaky suspicion that that was what was wrong with him because he had a spot on his lung that he would never go and have anything done with he refused all treatments and decided to just let it take his life. In a way I understand the reason that he did that because my aunt Bell his sister when she passed away it was because she was so small and frail that the chemo treatments had basically took her life. Cancer really does affect the whole family not just the person with cancer. I would never wish that disease on my worst enemy. Yes once you have that big C word in your life it is really hard to shake that nagging feeling of maybe that's what you might have with every little thing that pops up. Anyway I had saw online that there was an ad for life insurance so I filled out the little information sheet as far as contact info and I turned it in and they called me back well that was about a month ago and I was still was dragging my feet about it and I put them off and put them off telling them call me back call me back well thank goodness that they were willing to be persistent with me we were able to get life insurance for myself and I have a whole lot of medical health issues and my husband who basically has none and are two younger children who are at home all for the grand total of $160 a month. That is for $15000 on myself $15,000 on my husband $10,000 on our daughter and $10,000 on our son the good part about the kids insurance is in 20 years it will be completely paid for and they will owe nothing ours on the other hand we have to continue paying probably until our death. I don't mind paying ours for so long because I know in the end that it will be worth it knowing that our loved ones will not be burdened with the cost of cremating myself or my husband. I do not wish to be buried I just don't like that thought taking up space on land that could be used for something else I don't really have a reason, other than not wanting to use unnecessary space, as to why I feel this way I just have always been that type of a person that never liked, graveyards I feel like I would rather be cremated and my ashes floated in the ocean where I would feel at peace yes I know that once I'm dead I'm not going to know anything but just knowing now that that is what I want and that that's what my children are going to do for me puts me at peace. Now don't get me wrong I don't plan on dying anytime soon I plan on living for a long time so don't worry you'll be getting more and more blogs to read because I'm not going anywhere. Now today is going to be a long day because I have lots to do. I have to get the kids up and they can get ready and we are going to go grab a small breakfast somewhere and then go to the dentist for them to have a couple of fillings put in and then I have to pick up lunch for my son and husband and take that to them and then after their lunch break take and drive to the next town over and pay the rent and pay the electric and get trash service started for our house and do a little shopping and then come home and think about what the heck I'm going to make for dinner and then pick my husband up for work and then that about wraps my day up because once he comes home from work we watch a little TV eat dinner and pretty much go to sleep because 5 a.m. comes way way too early for me. Normally the kids would go to school but since they have a dentist appointment I told them that as long as they did not give me any problems that they could stay home after their dentist appointment. I told them y'all act up and you will definitely go back to school its nothing but a drive. Here lately I've been having a lot of fun on a app called tik tok. now before you say anything a lot of people are like I have heard of that app its stupid or childish or whatever but I don't care for me I just have fun making videos which are usually just really short clips anywhere from 5 seconds to 60 seconds at the most and you can act silly you can lip-sync to songs you can tell jokes you can pretty much do whatever you want to do and I've met a lot of really neat people and I have a lot of friends and they have what's called live chats where they can actually get on live and you can see them and you can talk as far as type whatever you want to talk about and every night before I go to sleep I get to talk to a friend of mine and my friends on her live chat and I we have a lot of fun there is a lot of laughing cutting up just acting stupid and it's really neat it's a good way to relieve some stress and I do enjoy mmyself. When I am making videos with my husband around he gives me the strangest looks and laughs at me and tells me that he thinks that I have lost what little mind I had. I know he's just joking cuz he has that laugh and that look in his eye when he says he says it as a joke but yeah it is so true I have lost probably what little marbles I did have somebody stole my marbles and they won't bring them back. I know I haven't been on here in a couple of days because I have been extremely busy and wore completely out but I do try to make time to post daily sometimes the best laid plans do not always work and I do not get to be on here as much as I want to and I'm sorry for that but I'm trying my best to be there everyday. If anybody has any feedback on what I write or anything any comments or questions please feel free to ask I will be more than happy to answer any questions that I can I may not know all the answers but we can always Google them that's what I do when the kids bring homework home that I don't understand Google is my new best friend. Well I better close for now and get off of here and get the kids up so they can get ready so we can go grab something to eat before their dentist appointment because after their dentist appointment they're not going to feel like eating much because their mouths will be numb and they will have a couple new fillings. I am going to try and do something with my hair I just got it cut and it is really really short and I think I like it but sometimes I'm like I just don't know but I don't really care because it's hair and if I don't like it I can always wear a hat which I do a lot anyway because it's cold outside and I really like my hats. Eventually my hair will grow back out and I will probably try cutting it in a different style I don't know that I'll come back to this style I don't think for me that it's going to be a style I wish to keep eventually. Im like you got to try to see if you like it if you tried and you don't like it you can keep on going switch boats and row on somewhere else. Well I'm going to hop off here and wake up the youngins I will catch you on the flip side. Peace and love to all my readers.

Too much shopping and a whole lot of remodeling

These past to days have been hectic.  Most people think that shopping is fun but, for me it can be so exhausting.  Last night by the time we got home I was so wore out all I was able to do is watch my favorite tv series Prison Break, I am really addicted to this show.  It is a little bit of action and a little bit of mystery all rolled into one.  Then after I watched my show I took my medicine and was out like a light.  Getting up every morning and running around shopping for the things we need and paying bills and keeping up with the house work takes a whole lot of  energy from me that I really don't have but, I have to keep going because I cannot just curl up in a ball in bed and forget about everything.  Well today I have took my hubby and son to work, shopped, paid bills, laid a rug in my bedroom, took my hubby and son lunch, fixed dinner, cleaned the house and picked up my hubby and son from work.  Tomorrow is not going to be any better because I have to get up at 5am, take my son to work, then me and my hubby have to drive for 1 hour to go see his doctor and see my doctor to get my vitamin B-12 shot, pay a couple bills, pick up my bookshelf, drop hubby off at work, then go home and wait for my pots and pans and bake ware to be delivered and then they are delivering our new couch, our bedroom suite, Kia-Leigh's bedroom suite and Luther and Dalton's bedroom suite.  Then I have to put my bedroom together.  I have drew a family tree on the wall in the living room and I have it outlined, well today bought the paint and brushes to finish it up and then I am going to get all of our family photos and hang them around the tree branches.  I also got a set of measuring cups and measuring spoons and a set of hook screws that I am going to install inside of one of the cabinet doors in my kitchen.  I can't wait to draw and then paint the pictures and measurement on the inside of the cabinet door so that way I can hang the cups and spoons.  Also I have bought a few things for the bathroom like rugs, shower curtain, shells in a basket, stickers for the walls and some pictures.  I am so excited about how awesome that our home is and is going to be.  Yes it has been a lot of work and quite a bit of money but, for us it has been worth it because the owner doesn't care what we do to the place.  I can decorate and do it all my way which is awesome to me.  Well today this is a little bit of a short blog but I tried to a least squeeze in something and I hope it gives you an insight as to my life. Peace and Blessings!!

social media

Ok my kids tease me because I have every social media app. that is out there (no dating apps because I am happily married). I tell my kids that the reason I have them is to keep up with what they are doing and moniter them but, to tell you the truth some of them are really for me because I actually have a lot of fun on them and I have made online friends.  For instance I have the following social media accounts:  Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, Tik Tok, and back in the day I had Yahoo and MySpace.  I am always looking for more followers so if you are reading this and you wish to follow me then please feel free to do so.  My Facebook is the only app that I keep private so that one is off limits to anyone who isn't a personal friend or family member.  I am sorry if that offends anyone but I have to do that for the safety of my family.  Ok here is a quick list of the ways that you can follow me:  Snapchat my user name is collegemom73, Instagram my user name is collegemom1973, Twitter my user name is @collegemom1973, Tik Tok my user name is @babygirlkelley.  As for Yahoo and Myspace I haven't been on those for years.  Oh yeah I also have YouTube the user name is Rebecca Kelley.  Also I have Google + the user name is plus.google.com/+RebeccaKelley73. Feel free to follow me on any and all of my apps please.  Ok well today I have a dentist appointment because for one the kids have to go for a cleaning and to have a couple of teeth fixed. I have to also have my rountine cleaning and have a couple teeth fixed.  My hubby got his taxes back last night so today after the doctor's appointment I get to do some shopping for the house.  I am so excited because there is so much that I want to do.  Friday my hubby has his back doctor appointment so I am going to get my hair cut then because his appointment is in the next town over and that is where I get my hair done every 3 months because the woman there is awesome and always does a perfect job.  It is so hard to find someone that can do your hair the way you want it and not screw it up.  A piece of advice just from my experiences whatever you do never get your hair cut at Wal-Mart because of my goodness I have went there twice and I also took my daughter there once and I had a friend go to and all of us came out with lopsided hair and it looked awful.  My cut is always the same and it is a really easy cut, short shag layered and cut about an inch below my ears, give me a little bangs and thin it out.  Well Wal-Mart got mad the last time because the lady tried to over charge me when the price is clearly on the wall and she wanted to charge me extra to thin my hair.  I reused to pay her more than what was clearly written.  She excepted them payment with an attitude but I didn't care because I am not going to allow anyone to take advantage of me.  One time we went there and the;y refused to cut my daughter's hair of my hair because they said we had nits, I tried to explain to the lady that the white flakes that she was seeing was psoriasis but, she still refused us and it was really humiliating.  We left and went to another salon and I explained what happened and she said there was no nits and she was used to working with people that have psoriasis.  She was awesome and made us feel so much better.  We no longer live anywhere close for us to be able to go back to her but, I have found an awesome place to get my hair done and they are very good and very friendly they always do an awesome job.  The place is Southern Rootz Salon 213 London Shopping Center, London, KY 40741.  The take walk-ins but, if you would like to call and make and appointment or ask questions their phone number is 606-657-5201.  You will not be disappointed by these girls.  Everybody thinks that being a Homemaker is an easy of job.  It is not like I sit on my butt all day eating chips and drinking coffee watching tv.  Here is a breakdown of my day: Wake up at 5 am, wake up my hubby (our older son sets his own alarm and gets himself up and rolling), I go to the bathroom, fix coffee, lay out my hubby's clothes, fix my hubby and son their lunch and breakfast, as soon as they leave for work at 5:30 am I have to get the kids up for school (thank God they are old enough to dress themselves), I sit down and drink my coffee and take my medicine and watch some tv or listen to music. At 6:20 am the kids are out the door and on the school bus, I check my social media accounts and I write my blog, I don't really eat I just drink a lot of liquids though, I take something out for dinner, clean the house, do laundry, watch a little tv and I do Tik Tok videos, the kids and the worker bees are home by 3:40 pm and dinner is waiting for them, then me and the hubby relax and watch tv.  Yes I do have busy days but man it is so boring.  Closing for now check ya out tomorrow.

I'm back

I am sorry it has been so long since I have written on my blog.  I lot has happened since my last post of course.  I will try to fill all ya'll in on everything.  My weight loss is at a stand still for some reason.  I started out at 400 pounds as most of you know and then after my weight loss surgery I got down to 212, but now I am back up to 245 and I have been here for almost 2 years.  Not going up which is a good thing but not going down which is really agrivating.  I am seeing a knee doctor who does a cortizone injection in my knee every 3 or 6 months.  I see a heart doctor every 6 months because they ran tests and found our that I had a slight heart attack. I see my family doctor every 3 months for medication refills and check up.  They have me on like 20 different perscriptions.  I see my dermatoligist every 3 months for a steriod shot because without it I have extremly painful pseriosis. Also I see the nurse at my family doctor's office for a B-12 shot every month.  Having all the illness that I have been diagnosed with really sucks but, I still have to keep going and not let myself stop and get down because if I do that it would be extreamly bad.  I have kids and my husband counting on me to be there for them the way that they are there for me.  I also see my psychiatrist every other month unless I need to talk before then.  My life seems to revolve around doctor appointments.  I am so glad that I get to see the dentist tomorrow because I have 2 teeth in the back that are cracked and chipped and cutting the inside of my mouth. The following is a list of medications that they have me on:  Simvastatin, Vitamin D, Potassium Chloride ER, Omeprazole, Vitamin B-12, Gabapentin, Multi-Vitamin, PEG oral packet, Hydrochlorothiazide, Aspirin, Polyethylene Glycol, Quetiapine Fumarate, Ibuprofen, Duloxetine HCI, Symbicort, Nitrostate, Loratadine, Halobetasol Propionate External Cream, and Fluticasone Propionate.  I have been diagnosed with the following conditions:  Allergic Rhinitis, Anxiety, Asthma, Bipolar Disorder, Congestive Heart Failure, Depression, Hypertension, High Cholesterol, Irritable Bowl Syndrome, Migraines, GERD, Sleep Apnea, Chest Pain, Shortness of Breath, Physical Deconditioning, Obesity, Arthritis, COPD, Knee pain, Fibromyalgia, Constipation, IBS, Dysuria, Lumbar Spine Pain, Hip Pain, Hypokalemia, Vitamin D deficiency, Vitamin B12 deficiency, Atypical chest pain, skin lesion infected, Abdominal Pain, UTI, Osteoporosis, Urinary Incontinence, and Gastrointestinealeitis.  I have had the following surgeries:  Appendectomy, Gallbladder removal, Oophorectomy, Tonsillectomy and adnoids removed, tubal ligation, complete, hysterectomy, 2 cesarean sections, DNC, Gastric bypass. I don't thing that there is anything left to remove, you would think that all of that with all of that stuff removed that it would make me lighter lol.  I am only sharing all of this with you because I want you to know that if you suffer from any of these things of anything else that you are not alone.  I have joined several support groups and it has been a positive thing in my life.  Another thing I do is an app on social media called Tik Tok, now before you think or say anything I know it is crazy but, for me it is fun and it gives me a chance to let lose and be goofy.  I really enjoy it, It really brings a smile to my face and puts joy in my life.  The people on Tik Tok have become my friends.  Yeah I may not have face to face friends but for my cyber friends have become important to me because it keeps me from retreating into a solitude of loneliness and depression.  Some of these friends have become more than friends, they are like family to me.  I don't take family lightly.  Since the death of my mother and dad I only have my husband and 3 kids who live in my home.  My husbands family do not act like a family should and 7 of our kids have nothing to do with us and I honestly don't know why and they won't tell us either.  I feel like life is to short for people to just throw their family away the way that they have done.  I really didn't appreciate my mother being around and I really took it for granted that thinking that she would always be around.  If you mother is still alive please be good to her and appreciate her.  As with my husband though his parents don't treat him like a son.  It breaks my heart when parents don't treat their kids right but, it also breaks my heart when kids take their parents for granted thinking that they will be around forever.  I gave so much to my 5 stepkids, in fact we never used labels, to me they were my kids and I treated them accordingly. I personally have 3 kids that I gave birth to and I never treated any of the 8 any different.  I was extremely happy to have all these children because I had always wanted a big family.  I wanted to be like those families on tv that get together and have fun.  Boy was I in for a rude awakening.  My mom helped to raise my 3 due to a nasty divorce and my hubby's 5 lived with us.  I gave all my kids my everything and 7 of them have turned their backs on us.  Yes it is painful and it hurts but, I have had to force myself not to wallow in it because if I keep dwelling on it I would crawl into a deep dark ball of depression and that would not be fair to the 1 who is by my side and the 2 grandkids who we are raising as our own and my hubby.  Ok no my life is not perfect my husband and I argue and have verbal fights but, we love each other with our whole hearts and we took our wedding vows seriously and we believe that it is till death do we part.  When we have a disagreement we talk it out, sometimes loudly lol, but we move on and keep on supporting each other. I want to throw this out here we do not become physical because that is a promise that we both made to each other.  With my first marriage I was the one who worked and kept the house finances together because he was a sorry bum who wouldn't support his family and cared more about beating the crap out of me and knocking the kids around and abusing them sexually (I found this out after I had left him).  I got out of this relationship after 10 years due to meet a woman who was a wonderful friend and like a big sister to me.  She helped me to see that this was not a healthy relationship and that I need to put on my big girl panties and leave the jerk.  He had always told me that he would kill me and the kids if I ever tried to leave him and that his family was bigger and badder than mine. So that is the reason that when I left I sent my kids to live with my mom.  The kids were ages 7, 6 and 4.  I left with my friend her name was Rena her real name is Dora Ritzinger.  I have lost contact with her and I would really love to see her again, I really miss my big sister, If anyone knows her whereabouts please let me know or tell her I am looking for her.  My email address is collegemom1973@gmail.com if you can help me I would greatly appreciate it.  We have recently like 1 and 1/2 weeks ago moved into a house that we are having to remodel as we are living here.  We worked out a good deal with the landlord and he gave us really cheap rent. and after it is fixed up he will not raise the rent and we can live her for as long as we want. Yes I got it all in writing.  I never realized how expensive remodeling is.  So far we have the living room completed and the kitchen.  My room only needs carpet, I have to finish nailing the baseboards back up in the living room and the fireplace (non working our choice) needs a few things done with it and when I get done with it it will look like it is functioning but it will be beautiful and fake lol. I am also having to replace the ceiling fan in here because someone removed the blades and the light.  I am just going to say this right here whoever lived her before really messed this place up, their was trash everywhere and wholes in the walls and windows knocked out and cracks all in the front door.  Well So far we have painted and laid carpet in the living room and I repaired the front door, We painted the kitchen and laid tile in the kitchen and linoleum in the dining area.  I also got 2 bar stools for the bar and they are Ashley and gorgeous.  My husband had a fit because I paid $100 a piece for them.  I also got an area rug for the living room for $50 it was on sale.  The theme for our living room is western and Indian. The theme for my kitchen is country and coffee cafe, the theme for the bathroom is tropical beach.  My room is going to be a showplace for my husbands knife and gun collection.  I have crocheted everyone a dream catcher for their rooms in the colors that they chose.  My next bigger project is fixing my bathroom and Kia-Leigh's bathroom.  She has her own bathroom connected to her room.  At the moment the boys are staying in my craft room because they have to do some work on the basement which is huge.  They have their own bedrooms down their, I have a storage room and the have a huge room that they are turning into a game room.  They are big on gaming and Youtube.  I also have about every social media, Tik Tok, Twitter, Facebook, You tube, Snap Chat, Instagram. I used to have myspace back in the day before facebook.  My kids hate it because I stalk them on all social media.  I feel that is being a good mom because I don't trust all these online people because there is so many perverts out there. I do trust my kids because that is one thing I have instilled in them.  My thing is never lie to me because I don't care what you have done just tell me the truth so we can deal with it and move on.  A lie will lead to more lies and once you loss trust then you have nothing because if someone can't trust you then what good are you.  I am the type of mom that I don't care what you did together we can fix it or whatever.  Yes if you do something wrong I will be disappointed but that doesn't mean my love for you stops because my love is unconditional.  By no means my kids are not perfect at all. Right now we have our 2 grandkids that we are raising as our own, Dalton is 13 and Kia-Leigh is 11 also my son Luther age 26 lives with us.  Luther has a job and he is a hard worker and he pulls his own weight and pays his own way. He has a job at a steel factory painting metal fences with my husband.  They work anywhere from 50-60 hours a week.  Luther is a good kid and he never gives us a minutes problem when payday rolls around the first thing he does is pay his part of the bills and then he has plenty of money left over for his self to do whatever he chooses.  My husband has been a father figure to him for 20 years and he calls him dad and that is awesome.  Dalton and Kia-Leigh are good kids but when they argue with each other boy do I just want to knock their heads together or duct tape their mouths lol.  They see a counselor because of all the crap that they have been through because of their mother.  She literally put them through hell for 6 months of their lives.  We have had them since birth but we had never went to court or had any paper work because we were dumb and didn't really thing about it. The mother which is my husbands daughter she made us jump through some awful hoops with the kids, if we didn't do things her way or jump when she said jump she would threaten to take the kids away from us.  She was bouncing around from guy to guy and doing drugs and partying.  We didn't know that we could take it to court and put and end to all of the drama she was putting the kids and us through.  Until one day about 10 years ago she beat up one of her kids aunts (for no reason, she was raising 1 of her kids since birth) and she beat up my niece because she didn't like what she had said about her which was only the truth.  Well finally the state picked up the case and filed charges against her and she got locked up for 6 months while she was pregnant with baby number 4, btw she has 5 and she has custody of none and no visitation rights.  The social workers stepped in and they were extremely helpful for us.  I know there is bad social workers out there but I just thank God the we got a wonderful worker.  We went to court and the judge was awesome she gave us full custody with no problem and it is our choice whether or not that she ever gets to see the kids.  Well she got out and had baby #4 and the state took him and placed him in a foster home and the family adopted him.  I am not upset about it because he is in a wonderful family and she is in contact with me and she sends me pictures and I send her pictures.  Baby #3 was raised since birth by the baby's aunt, the baby daddy left and went back to mexico and got married to a cute woman and they had a baby together put the baby only lived for 2 months due to a heart defect and it really broke all of our hearts.  Well our daughter decided that she was going to get married to this guy because omg she got pregnant with baby #5.  At the time she had an open DSS case and baby #4 had not been adopted yet and she though that if she got married that might help her get her kids back.  Only problem was she had not changed her ways.  Well the wedding was off the hook and it was beautiful.  I am the one who the the wedding planner and I decorated and organized everything. I made the boutonnieres and the bouquet and the made of honor's flowers.  One of our sons was the best man, one of your daughters was the maid of honor and he had 2 kids so his daughter and our granddaughter baby #2 was the flower girls and his son and our grandson baby #1 was the ring bearers. And my husband gave her a way.  After the wedding the receptions was an extremely awesome party.  I made food and the Mexicans made food and it was so good. Let me put this in right her I am not racist in the least.  I love all colors, I don't look at colors I look at a persons heart.  Well she had baby #5 and she had her tubes tied and burnt (thank God because she wouldn't use birth control) the state stepped in because her case was still open and she was an unfit mother she was not allowed to take the baby home.  They told her husband that if she lived with him that the baby couldn't go home with him.  So he kicked her out and took his baby home.  Which was a good choice because she only married him in hopes of getting baby #4 back.  She was extremely abusive towards her husband verbally and physically.  He ended up moving to Montana with the baby.  He filled for divorce and he received full custody of the baby and she get no contact. I get pictures of her occasionally.  Well like idiots we let her have contact with our 2.  She would clean her act up and pop in and then after a week or so she would be right back to her old self on drugs and hoeing around.  We had to make a decision a few months ago that enough was enough and the straw that broke the camels back was her calling and cussing out the kids and calling them anything she could lay her tongue to and telling them they were never wanted and baby #2 was the biggest mistake because she was white (all the others are part Hispanic).  Since then she has been permanently cut off. Yes the mama bear in me came out and she better be glad she was not standing in front of me or where I could get ahold of her because if she was I would have beat her half to death.  Well I have some remodeling repairs to do so I better end this for now I will try my best to post more often because I older son let me borrow one of his laptops until my husbands taxes come in and then I am going to get one of me own.  Peace and Love to everyone.