TGIF

Oh yeah today is Friday and tomorrow we are going to go to the big city of Lexington to visit family and friends.  I just pray that everything goes good because I absolutely would hate to drive for 2 hours to spend time with people and then they act like butt heads.  I can't stand drama, that is one of the reasons we live so far away because we are in a small town and by ourselves and it is wonderful.  The only drama that we generally have to deal with is when one of the kids gets and attitude.  They are scheduled to see councilors but that won't be until they go back to school after spring break.  I am in a way looking forward to spring break, which is this week but, in a way I am dreading it.  I never know what kind of mood the kids are going to be in.  I have some craft projects that I want to do with them and I am just praying that they can at least do good and get along with each other for the week.  I don't know that Dalton will want to do all the craft projects and stuff but, I know that Kia-Leigh will.  Also we are going to go outside and clean up the back yard because whoever lived here before were slobs.  So we want our back yard to look good so we can put out a grill and lawn furniture and things of that nature.  I also want to put in a horseshoe pit because I love playing horseshoes.  I am also going to get a hammock, one that has it's own stand.  They have them at Kroger's for $100 so that really isn't that bad.  I want to get my husband a grill for Father's Day.  For his birthday probably the hammock.  His birthday and Father's Day are both in June.  My husband is the biggest worry wort that I have ever met.  He panics every month while waiting for his check to deposit on his card.  If it isn't on there at the exact time that he expects it to be there he panics.  Last month it did not deposit until 3:46 PM central time, and other months it has deposited on his card at 11:46 AM central time.  So as you can see it is just sporadically on.  I wouldn't panic unless it got late and it still wasn't there.  He will call the card every month and ask them if it is still active and every month they tell him the same thing yes it is active.  I mean his paycheck just deposited on it yesterday and I have used the card twice today and there is money on his card so why wouldn't it be active.  He says all the time that I don't understand that he relied on that money to be there so we can pay our rent.  Yes I fully understand that we need that money for bills but, I don't have to sit in a worried fit to not understand.  I just prefer to not stress about things that don't need to be stressed about.  I just hope that this weekend he can relax and not stress about anything because that would drive me up a wall.  He needs at least one or even two days that he can forget about everything and just relax and be the man that I fell in love with that was fun and full of life.  Lately life has really stole his joy and he has become a hateful old man and I really don't like it. Yes I am still madly in love with him and I always will be and nothing is ever going to change that but, I would love to see him really smile like he used to.  It breaks my heart that it seems that his joy has just been zapped away.  Looking back over these last 20 years that we have been together we have endured a lot of things that most couples would have broken up over.  There has been no cheating at all from either side and there has never been a thought of it either because we have a low opinion of cheaters and that is something that neither one of us ever has to worry about.  We have just experienced a lot of grief and heartache from all of our children that with some of them has ripped our hearts to shreds.  We have experienced loss as far as the passing of my mom and dad.  We have had fur babies that we had for years pass away.  We have moved and lost all of our belongings and had to start over many times but, through all of the things that we have been through I feel that it has in a way strengthened us and made us grow up.  We are responsible now and the first thing that we do every week and every month is pay our bills.  Yes there are some weeks that we only have the money to pay our bills and then have nothing extra to just get our wants but, we realize that at least our bills are paid and we are able to relax and know that we have everything that we really need.  I go live on Tik Tok at 7:30 AM Monday-Friday and I am starting to get a little bit of a following on there.  We sit and talk about anything and everything while enjoying our morning coffee.  It is really nice getting to know new people even though it is just an Internet friendship.  I feel like if I can just be there for at least one person then that is a good thing.  My husband doesn't like me to do any media stuff when he is home because when he is home he wants me to be spending time with him which I fully understand.  So that is why I really don't get on the Internet on the weekends or evenings because we are spending our time together.  Also he has a lot of health issues that cause him pain and plus he works hard at his job to support us and when he gets home in the evenings he is in a lot of pain and he is tired.  I like to be there for him so I really don't mind giving him my undivided attention.  Well today I took my live on the road and took everyone with me while I paid bills and went shopping.  It was a lot of fun for me because it felt like I wasn't really alone.  I was able to find some really good deals today I got some Easter basket stuffers for my daughter and some other things.  My husband doesn't know how much money I have spent and I really don't want him to know.  I did get the things that he wanted me to buy like trash bags, dryer sheets and dish washing liquid and I got it at next to nothing because normally we would spend about $6 on kitchen trash bags, $5 on black trash bags, $3 on dish washing liquid and $3 on dryer sheets for a grand total of $17 plus tax, well I got everything for $5 plus tax for a grand total in savings of $12.  I think that is a good deal.  Also I got 4 things of deodorant, 2 dove 48 hour protection dry spray and 1 axe deodorant spray and 1 axe roll on deodorant.  If you went to the store to buy those you would pay $16 plus tax but I only paid $6 plus tax for them for a savings of $10.  I also go 2 foam pantine conditioners for $2 plus tax.  For an early Easter present I got my hubby an electronic Bible and Pac Man headphones.  I think that is something that he will like because he wants to read the Bible but, it is hard for him because he has trouble seeing the words and also he really isn't that good at reading so this is a way that he can hear the Bible and it will be good for him because it also has music downloaded on it.  I'm sure that in the evenings when he is trying to relax and go to sleep that he will use it to listen to.  I swear I think that upstairs has a heard of elephants living with them because them stomp back and forth through their house and it sounds like they are about to come through the ceiling.  Well today is half day for the kids because for some reason on Fridays they have half day of school.  They get home 2 hours earlier than normal so they are home now.  I am going to close for now and more than likely I won't be able to write again until Monday morning so until then, Peace and Love to all my family and friends.

Life can be crazy

Well this morning I woke at 5:30 AM as usual, got up went to the bathroom and then made coffee.  I was supposed to take my husband to work so that way I could go pay some bills and shop a little bit but, our daughter decided that she was going to bull up and not go to school because she didn't feel good.  I fully understand that she is sick and don't feel good because her tonsils are swollen and infected but, I have took her to the doctor and she is on an antibiotic and she doesn't need to be missing school because really there is no reason for her to be home.  For some reason she hates going to school and I don't really know how to handle it.  I cannot home school her because health wise I just can't do it.  Also we bump heads and it really would not work out.  The problem is that she is too smart for her own good and she hates authority.  We have spoke with a counselor and she will be meeting with her at least once a week at the school which I believe will help.  Also they are going to have her meet with a psychiatrist to see if maybe she needs to be on any kind of medication.  I know that medication is not always the answer but, I also know that sometimes it is necessary at least to help work through some issues.  Some people, like me, need to be on medication to help regulate hormones in the body and the chemicals in their system because some people's bodies just don't have the things that they need because of the pregnancy of their mother.  My mother experienced a great deal of stress while she was pregnant and she had to work hard and was on her feet for long hours.  Also I had a traumatic birth experience due to being stuck in the birth canal for 72 hours and then once I was born my head was swollen.  Also since being alive I have had multiple time that I have experienced traumatic experiences so I feel that is what has contributed to my mental health state of being.  I feel that her mental health state is due to the fact of all the drugs and alcohol that her biological mother consumed.  Then since being alive she has experienced traumatic experiences.  Her brother is also in need of counseling so they are going to set that up at his school.  He also has experienced the same traumatic experiences in and out of the womb so they are also going to set him up with a psychiatrist.  Well I am trying so hard to housebreak this dog of my husbands and it is about to drive me up a wall because he will stay outside forever walking around and he will do his business and then come inside and not 2 minutes later due his business in the house.  At first my husband wanted to just do nothing about it but, fuss and like I told him, he is just like a child and he has to be taught.  When you see him do it you how it to him and swat his bottom and then take him outside again that way he knows that he needs to go to the door and go outside instead of going in the floor.  He is really smart so I know that he can do it.  Bastian has bladder problems but he does at least go on either a puppy pad or sometimes on the linoleum or hardwood floor.  I mean at least it isn't on the carpet.  I am not going to lie yes they do have accidents on the carpet in our room and it pisses my hubby off because the carpet wasn't cheap to buy and put in but, I do try my hardest to keep them from doing it.  We have the living room blocked off so they are not able to be in there unless one of us is in there with them. Since I was not able to go pay bills today I have to spend tomorrow running around crazy.  Oh well at least on Saturday we get to go relax and have a little fun with our friends and family.  We are going to visit our Granddaughter, Sister (our kids aunt sort of), mother-in-law, father-in-law, and friends.  Then we are going to go to the suite and relax and have some drinks and eat and then relax and watch some TV and rest.  Then we are going to eat breakfast the next morning and then go pick up our daughter from her sister's house and probably go back over to my in-laws house to say goodbye and then come home and rest until they have to get up on Monday and go back to work.  Next week is spring break for the kids so we are going to do some things around the yard to make it look nicer outside.  Also we are going to finish remodeling my daughter's room and hopefully her bathroom also.  Well I must go cook dinner for this crew.  Closing for today.  Peace and Love my family and friends.

My crazy life

Sorry about being off here for a few days but, I was sick and so was my daughter so it was a crazy weekend and beginning of the week.  Monday we had 3 separate doctor visits in 3 different cities, it was absolutely crazy and then on top of that we had the rent man come over and fix our heat.  By the time we got home that night I was so wore completely out but, I still had to fix dinner which consisted of liver, mac and tomato juice and glazed candied carrots.  I fell into bed and went to sleep.  Tuesday I tried to finish up my Easter wreath and I fixed beans for dinner and folded laundry. Today I finished up the wreath and hung it up also I strung the glow in the dark eggs so I am needing my hubby to help me figure out what to do with them.  For dinner tonight I am making baked chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, stuffing and green beans.  I also have guess what fun fun fun laundry to fold.  It seems that everyday I have at least one load of laundry to fold.  I guess that might have something to do with 5 people living in this house lol.  I really don't mind folding the laundry it is just sometimes I get into a funk and I don't want to do anything.  I hate getting into a funk it drives me crazy.  I have the app Tik Tok on my phone and I can go live on there and make videos and for me it is fun and gives me a chance to make friends in different states and different countries.  I get to act silly, lip sync and sing in videos so yeah for me it is fun.  Also knowing that there are people who want to show up and talk and enjoy coffee together help me to keep going also.  I am absolutely in love with the wreath that I made for Easter and I am so excited and can't wait to make the mother's day wreath.  I am going to make a wreath for every single holiday.  I am so glad to be able to be in a place where I can decorate and do whatever I want to the house and no body cares.  I also can't wait until the last frost so that way I can plant my flowers and garden.  I am then going to can what I grow.  Also we are getting chickens and rabbits.  There is a guy at my hubby's work that is saying that he is going to give us a real turkey to raise for thanksgiving.  I feel that I am overrun with things that I want to do and things that I want to do and things I need to do.  Like for instance I feel that tik tok is something that helps me feel not so alone and that helps with the depression.  I have a little routine that I have going on.  I get up fix coffee, wake up kids, fix lunches, fix breakfast, get hubby and son off to work, get other 2 kids off to school and then I eat breakfast and get ready for my live on tik tok.  During the day I have different things to do and I have a to do list because I can't always remember what I am doing unless I right it down.  Like the nurse at my kids doctor said we suffer from sometimers.  Well got to close for now and clip Harley's nails and fix dinner.  Come join me for my lives 7:30 am Central Time Monday-Friday on tik tok app. at collegmom1973.  Peace and Love to all my friends and family.

I hate being sick

So yesterday I woke up with a slight sore throat, cough and headache.  I was going to go to the ER yesterday while my hubby was at work but, I really didn't want to go by myself, so when my hubby got home from work he was going to take me but, he was acting like a jerk so I decided I didn't want to go.  So this morning I woke up feeling worse than I did yesterday.  So my hubby is going to take me to the ER after work today.  I would go to the urgent treatment center but we really don't have the gas to drive 15 minutes away.  Also I would go to my doctor but, they are an hour away because I have not found one her yet.  I placed my application to be able to go to the same doctor's office as my kids but, they won't see me because of one of my medicines they don't prescribe and they won't refer  me out to someone who does.  I am not really happy about this because I do need to see a rumatolagist or pain management because I need someone how can treat my fybromyalgia.  Because I am sick I had to reschedule my dental surgery.  They won't do it while I am having any sickness that affects my breathing.  So now I can't do it for 3 more weeks.  Both kids are going to have to have their tonsils removed so we are hoping that they can do them on the same day.  I tell you what these fur babies of our are so absolutely spoilled rotten.  Everyday when I am writing this blog, watching TV, or posting on Tik Tok they have to lay on my legs but, I have to watch Harley because he thinks it is funny to pull the blanket off my feet.  Whenever I say anything to him he will look around like he doesn't know what you are talking about.  Okay people call me weird, especially my family because I like to watch Dr. Pimple Popper and Toe Bro.  I also like to watch Untold Stories of the ER.  I am not really sure but things like that just fascinate me.  My brother-in-law is so excited because the Governor signed into law that in the state of Kentucky you no longer have to have a concealed weapons permit.  Meaning that if you are legally allowed to own a gun then you are legally allowed to carry your gun however you choose to carry it.  I don't really care one way or the other about this law.  I mean I do believe that if you are legally allowed to own the gun then it should be your choice how you want to carry it.  Now me personally I am going to carry my 380 in a pouch in my purse because I am out during the week by myself and in this day and age it is important for a woman to be able to defend herself.  Yesterday I saw on the news that a 7 year old little girl was almost kidnapped out of her front yard and the only thing that saved her was that some of the neighborhood kids started yelling and alerted the dad and he came rushing out and held the man there until the police showed up and arrested the kidnapper.  That is exactly why I have never let my kids out of my sight because even in a small town you are not safe.  People are so sick in the head nowadays and they don't care the age or who they hurt for their sick pleasures.  Let me go on the record, I am by no means blaming the parents of the little girl because I can see how the parents felt that she was okay playing in the front yard and apparently the dad wasn't far away because he was able to hear the neighborhood kids yelling and he was able to catch and stop the kidnapper.  To many times people don't get the whole story and they want to jump on a bandwagon and bash the parents of the kids that get hurt and or kidnapped.  No one is a perfect parent and if we would spend more time lifting each other up instead of tearing each other down the world would be a better place.  Well I am going to have to close for now because I need to put together my Easter wreath.  I am making wreaths for every holiday and season.  I love making wreaths.  It is really easier than what people think it is and it is really not that expensive.  I can make a wreath for less than $15 which is a whole lot cheaper than buying them and I can personalize it anyway I want.  I have my fingers crossed that next month I am getting 5 ear piercings done and at least 1 tattoo if not 2.  Yes they are an addiction yes they can be painful but oh they are so satisfying.  Well anyway goodbye for now.  Peace and Love to all my family and friends.

OCD and other stuff that sucks

 Having a form of OCD really does suck because it is the weirdest things that will bother you.  For me I do have my quirky little things that bugs me like for instance cabinet door.  I cannot stand to have the cabinet doors left open.  Or drawers left open.  Also the chairs need to be pushed in and I have a certain place that the trash can goes and all the mops and brooms.  I have certain things put in certain places and placed a certain way and when someone doesn't place them back the way that I had them it really makes me a nervous wreck.  Seeing people with a pimple, blackhead or hairs that need plucked.  I don't know, I am definitely not a perfectionist because things are not perfect about me or my house but, growing up my Mom would say, "there's a place for everything and you need to put everything in it's place".  Growing up hearing this so much just kind of got me used to putting things back where they go instead of just sitting them anywhere and then when you go back later on not knowing or remembering where you put them.  My husband does not subscribe to my philosophy by any means.  I have been working on him for 20 years and I have not been able to get it into his head that if he puts things in one place and then he would know where it was when he went back to find them.  In some aspects he is slowly changing little by little.  For instance he will put his car key in the same spot every time now.  For me that is a big change for him because he was really bad about losing his keys and then he would have everyone in the whole house searching for where he willy nilly just tossed them.  This has been a great feat for me to get him this far because it has absolutely drove me up wall because I was so tired of looking for his keys all the time.  OK other things that get on my nerves, there are days when I really don't even feel like doing anything but curling up on the couch or in my bed and watching TV all day or even sleeping.  But today is another one of those days that this is not going to happen.  Yesterday I had to take the hubby and son to work because I had to have our lawn mower to the shop to be serviced for this years mowing season.  Today my daughter wakes up sick so I have to take her to the doctor and take myself somewhere to get checked because I am starting to develop bronchitis.  My son had strep throat on Thursday and I really think I caught something from him and I think my daughter might have caught something too.  Well I am going to have to cut this short today because of having to do 50 million things today.  I finished watching Prison Break last night because they showed their finale episode.  I am heart broke because that was an awesome show.  I am watching the Voice right now I absolutely love that show to.  Well time to close for now so wish me luck for the day.  Peace and Love to all my family and friends.

Sick kids and attitudes suck

So at the beginning of the week my husband was off work for 2 days due to a sprained wrist.  Then yesterday my older son got sent to the ER from work due to a severe case of bronchitis. Now this morning my other son wakes up blowing out green stuff from his nose, nausea and slight vomiting and running a low grade temp.  Now last week he and his sister had a virus and missed 3 days of school so I wasn't sure about keeping him home because I really don't want his grades to suffer so I did send him to school but, I just spoke to the nurse and she feels like he needs to come home and go see his pediatrician today.  I am okay with that I just didn't want him to miss unless the school nurse felt it was necessary.  The reason I don't really like that is because I feel like it is taking to much control away from me as a mother because I should be able to make the decision of when I feel my child is too sick to go to school. I fully understand why the schools are now like this because too many kids hate going to school and the parents don't really feel like fighting with the kids so they let them stay home.  I really do feel their pain because I am currently going through this with our daughter.  She is too smart for her own good but, she acts so (pardon the expression) dumb. 

I haven't posted for a few days and I am sorry but, my son was placed in the hospital on Thursday due to the fact that his tonsils were so infected that they had almost closed his throat up.  They immediately set him to the hospital and admitted him.  He said on IV antibiotics and fluids.  They started him on a liquid diet and then on Friday they gave him soft foods and then on Saturday they put him on a regular diet but, told him to stay away from hard foods.  He has to take an antibiotic in pill form for 10 days.  He goes back to the ENT next Monday and they are going to schedule him to have his tonsils taken out on an outpatient basis.  Also I was able to get my daughter an appointment with the ENT for next month.  She will possibly have to have her tonsils also removed.  I am hoping that they can do it at the same time that way we can just get it over with.

My daughters phone quit working, it was stuck on boot loop so now she doesn't have a phone which right now I am glad because she was making some bad choices online and we just don't condone that kind of behavior in the house.  I am so disappointed and stressed because of the way that she is currently acting.  I called the school and they are going to get her into see a counselor asap.  I hate being on this roller coaster with another child yet again.  I am getting way to old for this and I can't do this again.

We also got a call from my mother-in-law and she said that our niece had hit my father-in-law and knocked him out of his wheelchair.  I am so angry at her right now I could spit.  Well also the other day the baby who isn't even a year old fell down a flight of steps and hit the bottom.  She didn't even take her to the doctor or ER to have her checked out.  Finally one of my brother-in-laws went over and told her that if she wasn't going to pay rent or start spending her money on food and things for the babies that she needed to leave.  Well she said no so the cops were called and they made her leave and told her not to come back or she would be arrested.  Well she took the kids next door and dumped them on them.  Well they called me and let me know what was going on because we had the kids for almost 5 months of their lives and they were happy and in a stable home.  Well she decided that she didn't like the fact that she had to pay child support.  It is so crazy, she says that she loves her kids but, yet the things that she is doing are not proving that she loves them and wants what is best for them.  She has bounced those poor babies from house to house because she is homeless and she will sleep at whatever friend will take them in and then she sleeps on the floor with the babies.  She also feeds them nothing but chips and cereal.  Those babies need real food not junk food. Also when we got them they didn't have their shots so we took them to the doctor and got them their shots well she took them away from us we told her about it and she took them to the doctor and had their shots done again.  That is so dangerous.  She is so stupid she just doesn't care.

And one more thing before I close and go talk lunch to my older son and hubby.  I think the guy upstairs is just about the noisiest person.  He sounds like he is wearing the heaviest boots possible and he clomps back and forth through his apartment at all hours during the day and sometimes in the evening.  He also has the loudest washing machine and when he uses it it sounds like it is going to come through my ceiling.  He talked to my husband and said that he doesn't plan on being her long and boy do I hope that he isn't.  I pray either the apartment upstairs stays empty or we get really quiet and private neighbors.  Well I am going to have to close for now.  I will be back tomorrow if all goes well.  Peace and Love to my family and friends.

CBD oils for pain and other things

Some people think that I am weird or strange because I would rather you something that is all natural and comes from the earth to heal and help any condition.  I feel as though the pharmaceutical companies are all about the money that they can make and they really are not concerned that they are just trying to pump us full of chemicals because when this happens they just give us another pill for that condition.  I am getting to a point that I am tired of pumping my body full of pills and it is only masking the problem for a time and not really helping.  In 2010 I weighed almost 400 pounds and my doctors were always on my back about losing weight but, no matter what I was doing nothing was helping me to lose weight.  So my doctor sent me to a nutritionist for 6 months and I was extremely faithful to the program and I had to keep a food diary and I wrote down every single thing that I ate and drank in my diary.  I mean if I ate one bite of anything or drank one drink of anything it was written down. At the end of 6 months I was lucky if I lost even 20 pounds.  I was also in a Gastric Bypass program with the Georgetown Ky hospital and going through all the steps to be able to have Gastric Bypass surgery.  At the end of 6 months my Bariattric doctor called and said that I had passed all the medical and mental process and nutritional process and he was ready to schedule my surgery.  I was so extremely pleased because I was told that all of the health issues that I was having would more than likely go away.  At the time I was only like 25 different medications and I was having to set reminders because a lot of them were 3-4 times a day.  After surgery I had dropped down to 212 but now I am back up to 250, now I know that is still a good weight but, I want to weight under 200. I don't care if it is 199, I don't have a real reason I just have that desire.  Well after surgery I did lose some illnesses like diabetes and I did lose some medicines.  Now I am on like 18 medicines and have a slew of illnesses.  I am really not happy with it at all so I am debating on trying CBD oils because I have talked to several credible people that have either tried or are using CBD oils or they have done extensive research on CBD oil.  I am going on Thursday to check the prices of a CBD oil store here locally and depending on the prices I am going to try it out and I will definitely let y'all know how it works for me.  My husband is also thinking of trying it also but I think he wants to see how I react to it.  Oh and believe me I will tell my doctor what I am doing because I have gotten to a point where I really don't care if my doctor agrees or disagrees with anything that I am doing if I feel that it is something that is important or beneficial to my health.  I have extreme pain in my knees due to arthritis, bone spurs and the cushion being wore almost gone.  My doctor says that I am still young at 45 and he really doesn't want me to have 2 complete knee replacements right now because even they don't last forever.  So in the mean time they give me cortisone injections in both knees every 4-6 months.  Last year they tried cortisone shots were wearing off way to soon so they tried a gel cushion injection in both knees that was really uncomfortable and it helped for about 10 months and they we were back to square one.  Last night my husband finally talked me into going to the ER because I have been gritting my teeth and just bearing the pain.  The meds that my doctor has me on do absolutely nothing to ease any of my pain and then also dealing with Fybromyalgia it just seams to be a never ending pain in everywhere.  Well the doctor at the ER was really nice, he gave me a cortisone injection in both knees and a pain shot in my hip and waited 20 minutes and sent me home.  I can't lie the pain shot did help take all my pain away and I have minimum pain right now and the cortisone will help for about 4 months.  So I am going to try out the CBD oils because I can no longer live with this pain and I have to many things that I want to do.  I want to lose this 51 pounds and I can't do that without some exercise program which I actually have here at home.  I also am going to be growing a garden this year and canning what we grow and I am so excited and I can't wait.  I really love doing things like this.  I also cannot wait until the boys move into the basement because then I get my craft room and I am going to decorate and paint it and it is going to be awesome I am excited.  I love taking rooms and remodeling them and making them look amazing.  When we first stepped into this house I looked beyond the smell and trash and I saw so much potential in the house that I was like oh yes I want it.  Now my husband on the other hand he was like nope "hell no".  If has a problem looking at what something could be.  It is so funny how we are complete opposites like that, but then after I have done what I want to do with a room with his help of course he will sit back and look at the before and after pictures and be like "wow this is amazing I can't believe how good it looks now".  I am now in the process of editing pictures to have printed out and put in frames so I can hang them on our family tree wall.  I also like taking pictures and editing them.  I have a thing about taking something and making it look so much better.  Well I have to go for now, I have laundry washing and clothes to fold, I have steak laid out for dinner, and a few dishes to wash up and I have a few little projects I want to get done.  Well I am hopping off of here and I want to wish Peace and Love to all my friends and family.

Carry Conceal Now No Permit Needed

Well well well we now have a new law passed here in Kentucky that will be going into effect in July of this year, it is that if you are legally allowed to posses a handgun and you are 21 or older you can now carry a handgun concealed without having to purchase a concealed weapons permit or take the few hours class on gun safety.  I personally feel that this is a good law because you don't have to take a gun safety class before you purchase the handgun so why should you have to pay the state to take a class to be able to carry a gun in which you were already cleared to own.  Criminals are already carrying concealed handguns and they are not legally even allowed to own a handgun so why should I as a law abiding citizen have to pay to carry my handgun concealed.  When you purchase a handgun they have to call and see if you are legally allowed to even own a handgun before they will even allow you to take the handgun home so right there tells the state who all has handguns.  Some people are against this new law because they believe that it will increase handgun violence but, I really don't see that happening because most law abiding citizens have currently been able to carry their handguns just as long as they are visible.  The only difference now is that you don't know who is carrying a handgun and who isn't.  Another tidbit of news that is another law coming up that the governor of Kentucky will be signing is that people who have chronic pain will be able to legally use marijuana for the pain instead of having to pump their bodies full of poisons that are in the pills that they prescribe for them to take.  I am fully sure that pharmaceutical companies are not really thrilled with this law but, I feel that it is a safer because it is a plant that grows from the earth and not something that has been manufactured in a lab using God only knows what chemicals.  I believe that God put all medicines that we need on this earth and if we just learn about them then we can use them instead of the junk that we commonly use and then I believe that people would be a lot healthier and live longer like they once used to.  I know call me crazy but, really I don't care what people think of me because I believe that everyone is entitled to their own opinions.  On another note, on Sunday my husband slipped and fell in our bathroom because someone had spilled body wash in the middle of the floor.  Oh course when everyone was asked about it no one apparently did it so yeah just great we have once again been attacked by Mr. Nobody.  Well anyway after a quick trip to the emergency room and after having an e-ray the doctor determined that he had just a bad sprain and put him in a removable splint and gave him 2 days off from work.  He did not want to be off from work and so on Monday he went into work and they of course sent him home and told him to come back on Wednesday.  Most people would be oh that is awesome you get to spend 2 extra days at home with your husband.  Okay this would be a good thing if my husband was the time of person that could just sit down and relax like he does on the weekends but, oh no that is so not my husband.  On days that he is actually supposed to be working and he can't it drives him crazy and in turn he rides my very last nerve.  Now don't get me wrong I fully love spending time with my husband and he loves spending time with me  but, he has (I'm not sure what you would call it) this thing that when he is supposed to be working he has to be active and doing something.  Now me on the other hand I have different little projects at home that I am slowly getting done.  I do them slowly  because if I over-exert myself I will end up in total pain and needing to spend a few days in bed trying to recuperate.  I do not want to do that so whenever possible I try to take my time.  For instance yesterday I was able to finish the painting of the family tree on the wall in my living room, now all I have to do is to go through pictures and place them in frames and then decide where on the tree I want to hang them.  I was going to do this yesterday but, my husband had other plans.  He decided that he wanted to go buy a riding mower and I had to accompany him on this little quest which took about 3 hours at least and by the time we got home I sat down and folded 3 loads of laundry, ate take out pizza and watched a little television before going to sleep so that way I could wake up this morning a start all over.  My mornings are usually fairly routine, they consist of me getting up, go to the bathroom, wake up the kids for school and the guys for work, fix coffee, fix lunches, pour coffee, take meds, get kids off to school and then the guys off to work and then I sit down and enjoy my coffee while writing my blog.  After my blog I check emails and social media then I begin my housework.  Well today with my husband being home he has other plans, he has decided that bright and early we need to take a trip to Walmart which is about a 15 minute drive from our house.  So I have told him that as soon as I get dressed I will get myself and Bastian ready to go.  Yes I have to get my little fur baby dressed to go because for one it is cold outside and for two you don't go to town naked do you, at least I hope not.  So with that being said I am going to close this for now.  Wish me luck to survive this day.  Peace and Love my friends and family.

Stand Your Ground Law (Pros and Cons)

Okay people lets discuss the pros and cons of the Stand your Ground Law.  Last night I watched a documentary on BET about the Stand your Ground Law.  I felt that this documentary was extremely bias due to the fact that it was shown on a African American television network.  Apparently a majority of the African American community feels that the Stand your Ground Law is a legal OK for white people to shoot and kill other races.  They attempt to show the cases where white people have shot African Americans and the Stand your Ground Law has protected them from charges.  The only thing is that one of the cases that they have tried to site is the Zimmerman case in Florida.  The problem with their theory on this case is that Zimmerman was the shooter and he is not white he is of the Hispanic race.  Yes Zimmerman went free and no I do not agree with the fact that he went free because if he would have stayed in his car like the 911 operator had told him to do then he wouldn't have felt "threatened" for his life.  I feel personally that there are pros and cons with this law as with really any law that is passed.  Anyone with a lawyer worth their salt will be able to find a loop hole in any law and the person guilty or not will walk free.  That is just one of the downfalls that there is with our justice system.  I do believe that in cases where there is real evidence that a person is in real danger such as the other person is bigger than them and if the other person has a weapon.  Elderly people I believe can benefit from this law because in the day and age that we live in elderly people are taken care of and respected like they once were in generations long ago.  So many elderly people are being attacked, raped and robbed and our generation now days just turns a blind eye to this.  So yes in these cases do I believe that they should have the right to own a firearm and they should by all means blow away anyone who tries to hurt them in anyway.  Now I do not feel that this should give them a licence to act as though they are built proof and Billy Bad ass.  This is what I am talking about with the good and bad with any law.  I really do not feel that the Stand your Ground Law is a free pass for white people to shoot other races and I do not feel that people should hide behind this law to have an excuse to kill another human being.  There is a case going on right now in Florida and I am seeing both sides to the story but, I do not feel as though the man had a need to shoot and kill the other man for a few reasons. One: he had been acting like a Billy bad ass and a trouble maker in the past at the same convenient store, Two: the man was walking away from him.  Now do I feel that he had a right to defend himself, by all means yes because the man came out of the store and pushed him down on the ground.  As a grown man he should have know better than to put his hands on another person.  He shoved the man extremely hard as can be seen in the video because the guy feel backwards pretty hard.  If the white guy had a problem with the black guy parking in a handicap spot his reaction should have been to either go inside and tell the cashier and let them handle it or call the police and let them handle it.  He should have never approached the vehicle and tried to take matters into his own hands.  His actions set him up as being a hothead and caused the black man to want to retaliate.  Yes I know that the black man was very wrong for parking in a handicap shot without having any papers to do so.  I am handicap and it is extremely aggravating to have someone who doesn't have a paper to park in a handicap shot just because it is more convenient for them, they clearly do not realize just how important it is for us fellow handicap individuals to be able to park in those so few precious spots, but it is not my job to police the area and call "citizens arrest" like Barney Fife, that is clearly the men and women in blue's job.  Now a place where I feel the Stand your Ground Law does come in as a good law is when someone breaks into your home you have a right to defend yourself with deadly force if necessary.  The reason I feel like you should be able to use deadly force to protect your home is because no one should have the right to come into your home uninvited and try to steal from you or inflect harm on your or your family.  Your home is sacred and it is your place of refuge and no one has the right to invade your private space.  A lot of people are against people owing guns but, I am going to leave this right here, I am a legal American citizen and you better believe that I am going to own and carry a gun for my protection and safety.  That is in the constitution and it is my God given right to do so.  As people say this is America where we have the freedom to believe how we choose to believe and it is your right if you are a legal American citizen to choose whether or not you believe in God and whether or not you choose to have a firearm but, when the time comes that someone breaks into your home and threatens you with bodily harm I guarantee that you will call the police (who carry guns) and you will pray that they show up before the person hurts you or your family.  Now if you chose to have your own firearm then you could have protected yourself if need be.  Since I feel that it is your right to choose not to have a firearm, I respect that then you should also in the same respect the choice that I have made to have a firearm.  Also people lets get off of all of this racial kick that all of America is on and quit twisting and turning everything that is done into a race war.  People need to quit looking at the color of a person skin and judging them on the past or stereotyping them.  Everyone is their own individual person and as such should be treated that way.  I am considered white because of my skin color and because of that why would anyone stereotype me as being a skin head or KKK member, just as if your skin color is Black that doesn't mean that you are an NAACP card carrying street thug.  I think that is just dumb.  My family is a smorgasbord of different races.  For instances my God parents are black, one aunt is German and their kids are part German, one aunt is Hispanic and their kids are part Hispanic, I have part Hispanic grandchildren, my grandfather's side of the family is direct descendent to the Queen of England, my brother-in-law is Hispanic, my ex-son-in-law is Hispanic.  So yeah my family is a mix of a lot of different races and ethnic backgrounds.  I do not have racist bone in my body.  I can pretty much be friends of any race, size color, ethnic background, sexual orientation or religion.  As long as you are not trying to push me into your mold or way of thinking then we can be friends, but the minute you start pushing me that is when we will have problems.  I respect you and I deserve the same type of respect back.  My philosophy is really simple, you do you and I'll do me.  If more people could except that then the world would be a much better place and everyone could finally be at peace.  I am heartbroken over the fact that so many people especially young people are taking their own lives or are attempting to because people even grown adults are trying to push their thoughts and beliefs on them and bullying them to the point that they are so miserable that they feel the only way to make it stop is to kill themselves.  I by no means agree with the various sexual orientations, I am a one man and one woman that's it believer, but if you choose to not agree with that than it's okay we can choose to agree to disagree and we can still be friends.  I will not try and point out how I feel that you are wrong and I expect for you to show me the same respect and leave it alone.  My husband on the other hand is the complete opposite he has a hard time with other genders and with some races depending on how they act.  I can see why he believes the way he does but, that still doesn't mean that I agree with him.  Does this mean I love him any less, no we have just agreed to disagree on this point and we don't dwell on it.  I hope that this has helped someone be able to have an aha moment and really think about their way of believing.  Just remember, You do you and I'll do me and we will all be happier in the end.  Peace and Love my friends and family.

Rain Rain Go Away

Well today it is raining yet again and I am not happy about it.  I know that when the crops and gardens get planted and the rain is needed to be able for things to grow but, right now all it is causing is a big muddy mess and I don't like it.  I feel like the weather should stick to the rules that I learned when I was growing up and that is December thru February is the wintery cold months and them March comes along and it is supposed to be windy.  Because March winds bring April showers, April showers bring May flowers and May flowers bring June bugs.  I learned this when I was younger and that is the way that I feel the weather should be and it should act accordingly.  Although with all of the global warming and crap going on it is no wonder that the weather is all screwed up.  I try to teach my kids the little sayings that I learned as a kid like, red skies at night sailors delight, red skies in the morning sailors take warning.  I have also tried to teach all of my kids that they should make memories whenever possible because those are the things that you have to hold onto the rest of your life, especially when the people that you love are gone from your life either by death or they have moved on.  For me it is sad when people move on not by death but because they have decided that they no longer want to be a part of your life.  For me it is upsetting because I invest so much of my life to them and in them that I feel I should have more respect then what they give me.  I meant I do know that 7 of the kids had a mother but their mother was never there for them and when she disappointed them I was the one that was there to pick up the pieces and do things with them and take them places and things like that but, 4 of them who's mother passed away due to an overdose they act as though she was a saint which is crazy because like my mother always said "just because a person dies it doesn't change the kind of person that they really was".  I understand mourning the passing of a parent even though the parent wasn't really a good part of your life because my biological dad passed away and it was upsetting for me.  He was never a part of my life and one minute he claimed me and the next he didn't claim me.  I thank my cousin because she sent me his obituary but, when I read it they had but down my 2 half sisters and of course the grand kids and such but they listed some guy and said that he was like a son to him.  It was kind of like a slap in the face because it made me feel like wow he and that part of the family would claim someone who isn't really blood but, they are still sweeping me under the carpet.  I still like the fact that my cousin sent it to me because it allowed me to see a picture of him for the first time because I had always wondered what he looked like and that gave me that opportunity.  I am even being shunned by 2 of my children that I actually gave birth to and I honestly cannot tell you why they don't want me to be a part of their lives.  All of this does weigh heavy on my mind sometimes but, I try not to dwell on it because when I do it puts me in a depressive state that I really don't want to be in.  I try to focus on the fact that I am raising 2 kids that do love me and I love them with all my heart and they are special to me.  Yes there are times when I would like to smack them sillier than they already are and yes we all get on each others nerves sometimes but we are a family and there are times when you don't always see eye to eye but I am trying to instill in the that family doesn't always get along but you always stick together and have each others backs.  We are always trying to make good memories that way they will have something to look back on when we pass on.  I drug my feet and pitched a fit because my husband wanted to get life insurance for us and I didn't want to think about it because to be perfectly honest I don't want to think about dying.  My grandmother passed away at age 65 and then my mother passed away at age 65 and for me that is a big fear for me. I don't want to die at age 65 I want to be able to live a long life and be able to see all of my kids grow and fall in love and get married and have kids of their own.  So when my husband said that we needed to get life insurance it really scared me because all I could thing of was that he was expecting that I was going to die.  He didn't feel this way he just wanted to get it while we are young enough for it not to be as expensive.  I understand this but this ugly fear creeps up in the back of my mind and I have to constantly fight it off.  I have not really sat down and told anyone about my fears.  I keep a lot to myself because I don't really have anyone to talk to since my mother passed away, she was not only my mother she was my best friend.  We had a very open and honest relationship and I could tell her anything and she was not judgmental and that was really an awesome quality that I have inherited from her and I am very thankful for that.  On to today's agenda the kids are going to see their new doctor today and then I have some laundry to do and I have to go to the grocery store again so that way I can get food for the weekend because we are hoping with the weather permitting we are having my little sis and her girls and my aunt and uncle over for lunch and to see our new place.  I am excited about this because I really do love this part of my family.  No they are not blood but, they have been a part of my life for so long they are my family.  Well I better close for now and get busy.  Love and Peace to all.

Changing my name to Bill

Okay so I have given this a lot of thought and I am going to be changing my name to Bill because every payday he seems to be the one who gets a majority of the money that my husband makes.  I mean for real I could think of really awesome ways to spend the money my husband makes.  So if my name was Bill I would be making bank.  Everyone would be giving me money and I could spend my time shopping for the things that would make me smile.  It's just a thought so let me know what you think.  Today is pay day and that means that I  have to put my Bill paying hat on and run crazy paying this ominous Bill person that everyone gives their money to.  Also today I have to take the kids to the doctor because my daughter needs to get a referral to see a specialist concerning her tonsils.  I have been meaning to finish up the wall in the living room and as of yet I still have not done it.  I am the worse at procrastinating and for some reason I have been dragging my feet at finishing this project.  I am really good at starting projects but really bad at sometimes finishing them.  I am trying really hard to get out of this habit.  My mom was the same way and I am afraid that I may have inherited this from her.  I don't want my kids to get this from me so I am trying to break this habit with me.  For instance I have been trying really hard to write on my blog daily, sometimes on the weekends I find it difficult because those are the days when my husband is home from work and with all the chaos at the house on the weekends sometimes I find it hard to write.  Another thing is that I have downloaded the app on my phone that I had years ago when I was writing a book.  Well I am going to make myself finish it because I do not want to leave it hanging anymore.  These fur babies are so absolutely spoiled rotten.  Yesterday I bought Harley a non-rawhide bone to chew on, I didn't think that Bastian would like it or it would be too big for him but, boy was I wrong.  They take turns chewing on it, so today I need to go back to the store and buy Bastian his own.  Also I went to the thrift store and I bought Bastian 3 shirts and a jacket for $4.  He can wear newborn clothes and he doesn't care a bit to wear them.  I just love it when my fur babies like wearing clothes I mean for real do you go around naked??  On another note I have done a lot of thinking about this wall that President Trump wants to build and I really am for it because different countries have walls up to keep Americans out so if it is okay for them and they are not racist then how come when we want to build one that we are being racist?  Well I feel that is having a double standard.  Just like why is it okay there is a channel on television called BET (black entertainment television) and that's okay but if there was a WET (white entertainment television) everyone would lose their minds.  Also their is the NAACP and they also have scholarships that only black people are eligible for and they also have all black collages.  I am by no means racist because I don't look at the color of peoples skin and judge them, actually I don't judge anyone because that is not my job, I'm not God.  I have a rainbow of colors and races in my family like Mexican, black, white, German, English, Irish and too many more to name.  My mother raised me to believe that all people are equal and should be treated as such.  I feel that is why I have such a big problem with the segregation that is still happening in special circumstances.  I feel that if it isn't right for one race to have things for only their race then it shouldn't happen with any race.  But then that is just my opinion.  Also I most generally agree with things that the President is trying to accomplish with our country but, when the government shut down for all those days and the working people were feeling the affects of it, that is when I had a big problem with it.  I felt as though if anyone needed to work without pay it should have been those in government, the ones that were causing the shut down, the ones that were dragging their feet and not being able to come up with a compromise. Unfortunately it was the working people and elderly that it was directly affecting and for that I feel that was a wrong way to handle it.  Then again that is just my opinion and like I used to say when I was a clown, opinions are like noses everyone has one unless you are a clown then you have 2.  Yeah I think I am funny but, my husband thinks I'm cheesy.  I have a twitter account with the name @collegemom1973 I also have a Tik Tok account come follow me at @collegemom1973 Instagram at collegmom1973 Snapchat collegemom73 and You Tube at Rebecca Kelley.  So if you are not following me on any of these social media apps and you have these apps please come on over and follow me.  Well I have a lot to do and a short time to do it. Peace and Love.

A Never Ending Overflow of Laundry

Okay so yesterday I had what looked like 2 baskets of laundry to fold and put away.  Well that was a big joke because after I folded the first basket with no problem I started on the other basket and it smelled musty which is definatly not how you want your clothes to smell.  What happened was the second basket happened to be in my daughter's room from when we first moved in to our new house, well it was the basket of clothes that we had washed and dried and they didn't get all the way dry.  That meant for me that I had to rewash everything that was stuffed down in that basket and it turns out that my husband had stuffed 3 loads of laundry into that basket, plus I had to wash 2 other loads that was my blankets and sheets because of the accident that Bastian and I had.  So today I am folding the 3 loads of laundry.  I honestly hate doing laundry because it for real feels like it is never ending.  The start of today was crazy because my alarm didn't go off and we work up 30 minutes late so we had to rush around to get ready because I had to take them to work today because today is the day that I keep the van to pay bills and run errands.  The kids missed the bus because of me getting them up late but, that is okay because they were sick when they got up and they either have strep throat or a virus because they both have sore throats.  As soon as my hubby gets off work we will be taking them to urgent treatment because I have to switch their insurance to down here and then make them an appointment to see their pediatritian here.  For one because my daughter's tonsils are swelled up larger than normal and my son is battling a sore throat.  At 11:30 AM I have to take lunch to my hubby and older son and then when they get off work at 3:30.  I just got a phone call that the trash ran at 5 AM so we put out our trash for nothing but, next week instead of putting out 5 bags they are doing a double pickup of 10 bags next Wednesday.  Yep today has been a very eventful morning.  I did get to sit down and enjoy my cup of coffee and watch The Voice while I am writing this blog.  Yesterday I checked on some things to be able to advertise for some companies on my blog.  They would give me products to test and then write reviews for.  I am excited to do this because that would meant that my blog would be able to reach more people and then some of the things that I write about would be able to help others feel so not alone.  I want to help people know that they are not the only ones that are going through things in their life.  I am a member of a coumunity on Facebook so that way I can stay connected to others that have fibromyalga.  It feels good to be able to read their stories because even some of the little things that they are going through helps me to feel that I am not crazy or losing my mind.  I was dianosed with Epstien Barr Virus when I was 16 years old.  I had had my tonsils and adnoids taken out and I had Mono all at the same time.  I was in the hospital for about a week and then I was out of school for a semester and had to have a home bound teacher come to the house so that way I wouldn't get behind on my school work.  This was during my Junior year of high school.  The only thing that it really affected was that I was taking nursing at the Vocational school and I had to drop out of that so I wasn't able to go the full 2 years to be able to get my CNA liacence.  Before I got as sick as I am I was taking online courses to be able to get my Batchulers degree in Criminal Justice.  I was majoring in Crimminal Justice and minoring in Psycholagy.  I only had less than 1 year left but I had to drop out because I was not able keep up with my work.  Well I have way to much to do and a short time to accomplish it. So I will close for now. Peace and Love to everyone.

Family Tree

Well yesterday was a productive day because I was able to put everything away that was in our bedroom.  I think that I really overdid it yesterday because I was so super sore and fatigued due to my fibromyalgia.  Living with this illness is extremely hard, people don't really understand it or realize everything that a person living with this illness goes through.  You look like a normal person but inside you feel as though you are literally falling apart mentally, emotionally and physically.  Fibromyalgia effects so many aspects of you life and once you realize the effects you can began to deal with it.  Sometimes you just want to lay in the bed and cover up and block out the whole world but, being a mother and wife I do not have that option.  There are days like today that I have to literally force myself to do everything that needs to be done.  Today I am doing laundry, I really hate to do laundry but, someone has to do it lol.  Today I had to strip our bed and wash the sheet and blanket because me and Bastian had an accident last night.  I have a bladder incontinence problem and I have to wear adult pull ups due to this condition.  Also Bastian has a bladder incontinence problem and at night he has to wear diapers.  Well apparently we had drank a little to much fluids and we leaked on the sheet and blanket.  For me this is just something that I have to live with on a daily basis and when something like this happens you just have to get up and shake it off and roll on with your life.  I used to be really embarrassed about this condition but, lately I have become a person who feels that I just have to roll with the punches.  My day starts at 5:30 AM and that is hard sometimes, there are days when I just want to shut off the alarm and roll over and go back to sleep but, that is not an option because the kids have to go to school and my hubby and older son have to go to work and I have to fix their lunch and sometime breakfast.  I get up at 5:30 AM and go to the bathroom, wake up the kids, make coffee, fix lunches and get everyone out the door on time.  After everyone is out the door I sit down and enjoy my cup of coffee (sometimes by then I am on my second cup) and I watch whatever program that I have recorded the night before. After my short break I do whatever else needs to be done, laundry, sweeping floors, mopping floors, vacuuming rugs etc.  I always make sure that my family has a hot meal waiting on them when they all get home.  I write a blog, I have a You Tube channel, I have a Tik Tok account, Snap Chat, Twitter, Facebook, Google Plus, Pinterest.  Every month I throw an online party and this month I am hosting an online Tupperware party.  If anyone is interested in ordering on my party just click the link below and you can order on my party.  Every month when I have an online party I will post the link on her so everyone can be a part of the fun.  Today I am going to fold and put away 3 loads of laundry and then work on the family tree painting that is in the living room and then I am going to go online and edit some pictures so I can send them over to the photo lab so I can have them printed out and put them in frames and hang them on the family tree.  My son got me a digital camera and I am going to take some pictures of the family that is in my house and hang them on the family tree.  The theme of my living room is Western/Indian style.  I have crocheted a dream catcher for every room in the house because I love them and I wanted everyone to have something special that I made just for them.  I am in the middle making a carrying purse for Bastian because I have to take him everywhere I go do to his medical issues and holding him in my arms constantly hurts me and is uncomfortable for him too.  Also the weather is cold and he shivers a lot so I am making him a sweater to wear when we go out.  We are getting a swinging gate for the living room because when we go anywhere we don't want Harley to be in the living room, we shut all the doors so he has accesse to the kitchen and hallway.  If he does okay with that then I won't have to put him in a kennel when I go out.  I personally would rather allow him to roam around but if he starts tearing up things then I will have to put in in a kennel to where he doesn't mess anything up.  People have told me that they wouldn't have puppy because they chew everything up but, I believe that if they are properly trained then they are really awesome babies.  We raised a fur baby who we got at 6 months old and we had him until he passed away at the age of 13.  Well the time has come that I must close this blog for today.  Peace and Love to everyone.

Tupperware online party link:  you have until 3/18/19 to place your order:

https://www.tupperware.com/?party=5c7dad09afc0a1bd09437bb6

Still remodeling lol

Well to start with I am so super excited because my husband bought me a laptop so I am able to write my blog a whole lot easier because writing on my phone was possible but, I was harder. I have a harder time writing on the weekends because everyone is home and I try to spend as much time with my husband because he works 50-60 hours a week so the weekends are really the only time we really get to spend any time together.  I also don't really do any tik tok or really any social media on the weekends because we try to devote our weekends to family.  I know some people would not agree with this decision but, for us it is what works for us.  Every month I also try to do an online party like Tupperware, Avon, Mary Kay etc. so if anyone is interested in being invited to an online party then by all means please comment or message me with your email address and I will be more than happy to send you and invitation link.  I am also going to start working on adding some content to my YouTube channel.  I would absolutely love to get big and blow up on social media.  Now that I have a laptop doing social media will be a whole lot easier. We now have to fur babies.  Harley is a bull dog Labrador mix called a bulldog. He was born in December and he is 3 months old.  He is a bundle of energy and he is really smart and goofy.  We also have Sebastian who we call Bastian for short.  He is Yorkshire Terrier and he is 5 years old.  He has cataracts on both eyes and he can only see shadows and every night he takes a pill for his toroid which makes him drowsy and he has to wear a diaper because he has accidents in his sleep.  He goes everywhere I go and I carry him around in a purse pouch that I crocheted just for him, I put a diaper on him whenever we go out for just in case accidents.  As far as the remodeling of the house we have done so much work but, it seems like we has bits and pieces of things left to do.  Sometimes it feels overwhelming but, I know that there is nothing that we cannot do with this home.  I like the fact that the landlord has giving us full freedom to do whatever we want to the house.  For me it makes it feel more like our own home.  Everyone seems really please with living here.  The only downfall is that there is an apartment right above our house and the guy that lives there can be somewhat noisy at times and it sounds like he is wearing boots and stomping all though his apartment and then at times it sounds like he is dragging or rolling things across the floor.  I know that he is just moving in and that it is going to be somewhat noisy at times because you have to move stuff around to get it where you want it.  Our only problem is that he will move things after 9PM.  Well that is defiantly not the right hour to be moving things around especially when you know that the people below you have to get up early the next day.  We have the living room almost completely done the only thing left to do is to get the ceiling fan on Wednesday and install it and finish painting the family tree on the wall and put up pictures.  I eventually want to fix up the fireplace because I am doing a faux fireplace because we are not going to actually be using it and it will only be there for decoration.  Then there is the kitchen, I need to finish installing the tile, redo the cabinet door handles, add the hooks and decor on the inside of one of the doors for my measuring cups and measuring spoons and hang the coat knobs by the back door and put up the hooks for the dog leashes.  The hallway has been painted but it does need some touch ups so we are going to need to get another thing of paint for it.  Our bedroom is basically done all we have to do is put everything away and I have to glue the carpet down by the door.  The bathroom needs paint, a sheet of drywall replaced and a couple of holes fixed, I am going to install a shower into the tub and hang a shower curtain and rod.  I also have pictures to hang around that I have purchased and also colored.  Kia-Leigh's room has some holes I need to patch and we already have the paint to paint her room and bathroom.  Now her bathroom is going to be the most challenging because I have to replace the pipes for the sink, patch holes in the walls, replace the toilet seat, put down tile, and scrub the bathtub that is gross and smells bad.  We have a shower curtain rod and shower curtain that I have to install also.  The boys are going to be fixing up the basement and then they are moving down their and then I can have my craft room.  For my craft room I am going to have to take up the old carpet and replace it with new carpet, patch some holes and then paint.  As for the basement they are going to seal any places that need it, remove the board that is up and replace it with a door, they bought black paint for the wall so that way it all the nastiness will be covered up.  Then they are going to turn the big room into their living room/game room.  They will each have their own room and then we will be using one of the rooms for storage of all of our various holiday decorations.  On today's to do list is put away all the stuff in my room, do some laundry, fix dinner and then try to work on the family tree painting.  Sometimes it is hard for me to get some things accomplished because I suffer from fibromyalga and the pain from it makes it hard for me to get up and be motivated but, once I get up and going I can usually accomplish quite a bit of stuff.  Well I had better get off of here and get started.  I also bought an exercise DVD called the sit down workout and I am going to be videoing me doing the workouts and upload it to YouTube so I might be an encouragement for others.  Well bye for today and Peace and Love to all.