Yes, I know I am weird. I watch a lot of YouTube videos. Lately, I have been watching Steve will do it and the Nelk boys and they help a lot of strangers. They give away cars, jewelry, money, houses, and just help deserving people, and don't get me wrong I think that is wonderful. I love seeing people receive gifts and being made happy because it warms my heart and believe me I am in no way hating on no one. I just get a little sad sometimes because I wonder why no one ever sees the struggle that my husband and I go through. Together we have raised 10 children. Let me explain; He got married to his first wife and during the marriage, she had 2 kids that were not his and 2 that were. Then after the divorce, he had a child that we raised. Oh and by the way the 2 kids that she had that were not his she didn't want so we took them in and raised them as our own with no help from her ever. And the child he had by the other woman we raised with no help from that woman either. Then by my first marriage, I had 3 kids and there was no support there either. And now we have had our 2 grandkids since birth and with no support there either so that is 10 kids being raised all on my husband and I. Do we regret it? No by no means ever. The only thing that saddens us now is that out of all 10 kids only 3 are loyal to us and a couple may call every now and then if they feel like it. It really hurts that we gave them the best that we could in life and they have now turned their backs on us. Then I see all these people doing Go Fund Me pages and receiving help from everyone and yet there we go again us nothing. I guess I do sound bitter and I am sorry because I really don't mean to sound that way I am just trying to get my feelings out and let you know how I feel so please forgive me. I am the type of person who loves to see other people succeed in life, I really do. I don't like to see people doing bad or hurting in any way. I am just having a hard time right now with my emotions because we are wanting to move so very badly to Florida because I have spoken to my doctors and because of the health conditions that I am having they have suggested that the weather in Florida would be best for me and also for my husband. We used to live in Florida and while we lived there I was doing so much better than I am now but, the reason that we moved back to Kentucky is because of my husband's family. They all live here in Kentucky and we moved here to help out with his parents but, right now we feel that my health is what is important, and moving would be the best thing for us to do. Also, with school starting in August we wanted to move the 1st of the month so the kids wouldn't have to start school here and then have to move in the middle of the school year. Now we just don't know what is going to happen because finding a place is harder than you might think. People don't rent out their own houses anymore, they use agencies and the agencies run credit checks and charge fees per person. The background check is no big deal because we both have clean backgrounds. Our credit is both above 500 but less than 600 so with that they want a deposit of twice the rent to be able to move in which is so crazy. I mean we have a good rental history, good job history, excellent background, shouldn't that count for something? Oh, no they want everything handed to them on a silver platter with a fee of $50 per adult just to let you know if you qualify and if you don't then you don't get your fee back. I don't know about you but, I just don't have $100 to give away to people just to be told sorry your credit isn't good enough to rent my house. You would think that they are trying to rent you a mansion the way they are acting but, some of the houses are really not even all that nice. I mean some are nice but, some are not. I have looked online at so many houses over the last week that my head is just spinning thinking about it. I have seen some really pretty houses and I have seen some really crappy houses. I have seen them asking stupid prices for houses that I wouldn't want my service dog living in. I don't understand how they price houses. To me, it's like they have a board with prices and a board with houses and they just throw darts at both and that's how they pick. To me, it makes no sense. Well, I guess I am going to stop writing for now and quit thinking about when my day will come when someone will finally see that we too are a deserving family that has paid our dues. My husband has hustled and busted his butt to raise these kids and give them the best that he could. He has gone without so that they wouldn't have to. He deserves the best I just wish I could give it to him. I feel bad for him because I have seen him go around with holes in his shoes because he used the money to make sure all the kids had new shoes for school. He has worn used clothes so the kids could have new clothes for school. He has even eaten a peanut butter sandwich for dinner and told the kids he wasn't hungry so they would have enough. He may not be perfect but he is mine and I thank God for him every day and I love him. He has a kind heart and helps others whenever he can without any recognition. He is the definition of a true man and father.
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