Is the light at the end of the tunnel another train?

It always seems like whenever you finally see the end in sight the other shoe drops and that bright light turns out to be a bigger train. I just want for once that the light at the end is actually the sunshine shining on us and something good comes out of it. We are going this morning to look at a rent to own home that is 5 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, full finished basement, building in the back yard, garage, and fenced in yard on a corner lot. We can afford it, we just have to wait a little time until we get our taxes filed and back. It is all just a waiting game right now. Sometimes I get a little down waiting but, I just have to remind myself that it is all going to work out. Sometimes it aggravates me because I see all of these people using go fund me and tik tok to get money for bills and if I ask for anything I just get ignored. The only thing is we only need $600 to hold this home for us until we get our taxes back. Let me state right now that I am not talking about people raising money for emergency medical bills or a funeral I am talking about bill money. Another thing that upsets me is that it seems like on every street corner you see someone holding a sign begging for money. My husband is disabled and he is not supposed to be working and he gets out there every day and busts his butt trying to make a living for our family and then to see someone who is clearly able to work is just standing there holding a sign expecting people to just throw money at the for nothing. I know that sometimes people get down on their luck and they are only looking for a hand up and not a handout. But, when you see all of these people using the system it just really gets on my last nerve. Yes, there is a time when I have a couple dollar in cash I will give it to people because I will an urging that it is what needs to be done but, then there are others where all I feel is disgust at the waste of a life not wanting better for themselves. I have 2 nephews who get SSI and there is nothing wrong with them, they can work they are just too lazy to make something of themselves. I have been fighting to get my disability since 2014 and I keep getting turned down even though I have doctors stating that I am not able to hold down a job. The system is just so frustrating. Hopeful this time will be different and I will get approved. Again, it is just a waiting game that I am tired of playing. I went to the doctor on Monday and she made a lot of referrals for me to see specialists and she wrote me a ton of prescriptions. I have waited for 2 days now and the pharmacy still doesn't have them filled so, today I have to call the pharmacy and find out what is going on. I am out of medications that I really need and cannot function without them. I really don't like the pharmacy that I am using right now and I plan on changing just as soon as we move. 2 months ago they gave my husband his dad's medicine and charged his insurance and then a couple of days later they call him to tell him about the "mix up" and asked him to either bring the medication back or give it to his dad. Then my husband's doctor sent over his prescriptions with refills on some and one was a prescription for 2 months on 2 separate prescriptions well, they fill the first month's prescriptions and then the next month when we went to pick up his medicine they had deleted his refills. So, we had to call the doctor to get them to resend the prescriptions over. Then when he picked up his medicine they put the wrong prescription in the bag, it didn't match what was on the paperwork. It really seems like they have their heads up their butt. You would think that being in charge of people's medicine which can be a life or death situation that they would be more careful and responsible that what they are. Come to find out we are not the only ones who have problems with them. Writing this blog helps to clear my mind and help me to not feel so overwhelmed with all the problems that life throws at me. I write it in hopes that someone will read it and know that they are not alone.